The Drums Are Four On The Floor

Here are my old works of fiction aka works of slash found on this account.
[oldest to newest]



"It's Something Like Head Verses Heart"
S/A
Brendon sleeps with a girl he's not into and during it he thinks about Ryan. This is sorta semi personal



"You Fit Perfectly Underneath Me
S/A

This was written after I ranted for like an hour to my one friend about how Ryan's bone structure got bigger, and how he's more broad now, and where Bren not only being shorter is just smaller all together. Which I don’t know how obv that was to people, but a lot continue to think Ryan is smaller.
When he is not, and I will not believe otherwise, it's in the bone structure!


"polyamory never sounded so good"
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02
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based off of a mind blowing Ry/Kelts/Bren fic only this is all my own.
was canceled due to no one really read it.


****"Lips Laced With Vodka [standalone]
S/A
MY FIRST EVER RYDEN FIC

****found on my original account HxCxLOVEx

1. List your top ten favorite men/footballers/celebrities/fictional characters.
2. Answer all the questions listed.
3. Make a post!
4. Whoever wants can do this. Spread the fun all around!


1. Brendon Urie
2. Pete Wentz
3. Gabe Saporta
4. Jon Walker
5. Travis McCoy
6. James Franco
7. Ryan Ross
8. William Beckett
9. Will Smith
10. Spencer Smith


- So, what do you like most about 2?
it's Pete, he keeps me sane, I'd fall for him if I could

- If you could do anything to 4, what would it be?
demand a hug every ten seconds and to teach me how to be cool as hell

- Who would you choose between 5 and 7?
Travis, fuck that mans hot as shit

- Out of a ten, how much would you rate 1?
11 or higher

- What do you find most attractive about 1?
everything, like from looks to his talents to his personality, give me a week with him and I'll tell you for sure

- If you could go out with 3, what type of date would you go on?
a crazy ass date, filled with fun and getting kicked out of places oh mean I'd make it one of the best days of my life

- Why is 10 not higher up your list?
because it's spencer and his smile makes him stay there

- So what does 10 have to do to be brought higher up?
smile more, get better taste in shoes XD

- What would be the ideal situation for you for 2 and 4?
oh man, being chicago suburb tour guides, it fits perfectly

- Marry, shag or kiss - 4, 6, 8.
Marry jon, shag James and kiss William.

- What do you hate most about 7?
a few minor things, but he's Ryan Ross, all is forgiven at the end of the day <3

- Have you ever thought about how you'll react when you meet 3?
I'd either freak the fuck out because I'm meeting one fucking cool cat, or just be me

- Have you seen 1 and 2 together on tv before?
yep, good friends they are, interviews and such

- Have you ever dreamt about 6?
yeah, about weed and lots of kissing and me wishing he was younger

- Who would you take to a prom/ball with you?
not just one, fuck that it has to be Gabe and Travis, oh man we'd be the life of the party, burn that bitch down

- Cuddle, glomp or kiss - 1, 3, 5.
Cuddle with Gabe, glomp Travis and kiss Brendon.

- If you could give anything to 10, what would it be?
shoes lots of shoes

- Out of all of them - who would you:
Kick? Ryan. sometimes he's just asking for it
Kiss? Brendon. I couldn't get enough of those lips
Pinch cheeks? Spencer, hahaha
Runaway with? Pete, and we'd have a good reason
Act like an idiot with? Gabe, because it's Gabe
Cry on? Will Smith, his sense of humor would cheer me up so much
Take to see your parents? Jon or James, Jon cause he's the defintion of cool, James cause my mom thinks he's hot
Bungee jump with? William, he'd scream like a girl more then me
Cross dress with? Brendon, we'd be hot cross dressers
Swap lives with for a day? all of them.

these walls hold memories of my life along with the crappy wall paper, wood paneling and chipped paint.
the good the bad of my childhood and teenage years.
they leak pain, sorrow, happiness, love, my emotions.
I know it like the back of my small thin hands.
it's not just a house it's a home, my home.
What if I have to say goodbye, start a new home, a new life it seems like.
no more planes every almost minute. The trees with golden leaves in the summers.
What if I have to say goodbye to Wood Dale? I've always said I wanted out of this so called disaster town. My whole existent, my life in this town, I don't think I really want to go.

I have hope that the things will be fixed and wont cost my landlord the 20 - 30 grand he doesn't have. Though the pessimist and realist in me knows that all of this might happen.
The memories of this town, the places that helped me forget bad moments and memories.
will I have to say good bye Wood Dale and hello Bensenville, Addison, Elmhurst, Itasca, Elk Grove, Villa Park any of those?

Will my shit be packed up in boxes, will I spend till my early twenties here or some place else?
I'm filled with this sadness and I feel like a child who has to move and doesn't want to.
Yet I'm curious what a new house a new home will hold, a new town if at that.
Will I sleep only to wake and forget where I am?
I know every crack, corner number of tiles and stairs, how the light shines on the walls. How the moonlight comes in though the windows.

fifteen years will be left behind this coming summer before my 20th birthday.
When I was four I didn't remember much of my old home, though I get nostalgic seeing the house on OakWood.
Imagine the nostalgia of this home, either if I visit it when it's closed or knocked down.

A piece of who I am, my life, my heart will be gone if I have to say goodbye, I don't want to say goodbye. I have till I'm old and grey with grand kids [if I'm lucky to live the life I want and see what I want to see, be who I want to be] how many times will I leave a home and make a new one some place else. Will I be ready then? will this be the only time I will have a hard time letting go?


on a side note that doesn't have to do with this, my Circa/Easo balloons the 'On Letting Go' balloons I want tattooed I finally have the reason for their meaning.
On Letting Go: sometimes you have to let go, wither it be a family member, someone you love, a pet, a feeling, a place of memories. You have to let go or the memories will keep you chained to the ground, to thoughts and pain you don't want, you need to lift off and move on.

as I listened to the lyrics, his words, I realize that's it's always been him, and it will always be.

Pierre, Ross, Beckett their lyrics mean a lot to me, I can find myself in so many of their lyrics.
But it will always be him, Panda.

I thought I grew up, that the lyrics didn't effect me as much, that I didn't find myself in the words like I used to. It's bullshit, I grew up a bit more, but they still do it, I still find myself.

the new songs mainly Headfrist and What a Catch , well I'll say a few lines, and you'll see what I mean. Makes me cry still makes me want to hug him, thank him, go crying to him. I'm glad I have my tattoo I knew I would always love it.

"But I will never end up like him, behind my back I already am"

I didn't want to end up like some of the people I had, with things I think are wrong, but I've done them. I have secrets that a few knows, some who shouldn't. If they knew, my life would end, I keep them to myself but I spill them to some who don't deserve to know. all guys at that.
I don't want to end up the person I can be, but I know I just might I can feel it.

"the last time you came though, oh darling I know what you're going through"
I don't really find myself in this, but it's like I could see him/someone saying this to me, I could be one to use these words. it makes me cry and my heart hurt.

"I've got troubled thoughts, and the self esteem to match, what a catch, what a catch"
the depression the thoughts they've never left I just learned how to control them, no matter how I think my self esteem will always be low, I know I'll make someone happy one day someone will love me, but it's like if they knew, if they just knew, they wouldn't love me, because who can love you if you don't fully love yourself?

"Miss Flack said I still want you back"
I started to fall, and for the wrong person, for someone not good for me, in less then a month, the day I saw him. At times I want those good qualities back none of the bad, just someone told hold me like he did that one night, to kiss me in a store not caring. Saying I was beautiful.
But I hate him, I really do.

"And all I can think of is the way, I'm the one who charmed, who gave up on you"
I gave up on you, I gave up on here, I left for a while for friends who I thought cared, who where real. I'll give up on you again, not her screw her. Sometime again and I'll hate it, I'll hate myself. But I will never give up on you.

I'm crying right now, wishing for wishes that will never come true.
Thank you that I wont be able to say, or at lest say when I get the chance too.
I'm not one for letters, because I wont know what to say, I wont say what I need to say.
would I be this way, would I feel what I feel if he didn't exist, who knows, but I wouldn't want a world without him and his words my life, who I am wouldn't be the same.

Here are some of my work, not every much. Found under my old account, NerdxVomit



"Don't Matter S/A"
Don't Matter S/A
a Song fic based off of Akon's "Don't Matter", contains Ryden and Peterick.



"Still My Fingers Catch The Sparks At The Thought Of Touching You
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02

Based off of Thrid Eye Blind's song "Wounded", Ryden, some Joncer. Hiatus or Canceled.


"Drabbles/10 song challenge"
Drabbles
Ryden, some Joncer, Peterick, Gabilliam


"Tears Come Streaming Down Your Face
Version 1
Based off of "Fix You" by Cold Play.
Ryden.

Through half lidded lust filled eyes, he looked down at the smaller boy beneath him.
"We're not cheap, our love isn't cheap Ry."

For once this was not sex, it was making love, and for once when Brendon felt Ryan push into him, he knew their bodies never fit better together, like they did now.

Ryan was always the smallest. Tall and lean, long limbs of a boyish body. But as he got older, 20, 21 going on 22, he no longer was the smallest out of his band members.
His shoulders broadened, hip bones moved, making for a manly "V". Ryan's frame was no longer of a teenage boy's built, but more of dare I say it, lean, tall, in shape man's frame.

So Ryan understood why that lately Brendon fit better underneath him.
Shorter and a smaller frame. Brendon always had more curves, more flesh.
His shoulders where more narrow then Ryan's these days (They always have been).
His torso shorter and more curvy at the waist.
But it was the hips, Brendon's hips. The way his backside curved, that always took on more of a woman esq. design.
Brendon had the "V" that Ryan loved so much, to trace his fingers over, But they where more rounded, less defined naturally at the top, and all the way down. The way his ass plump and round , started from his tail bone and curved to end perfectly with his tights.

Even though Brendon's whole body frame grew more right before he hit 21, Ryan still loved the way Brendon looked and felt. Underneath him, the way his chest grazed against Ryan's own bare one, when Brendon's back would arch every time Ryan hit dead on.

Both Boys soon to be men loved how when they made love, became as one, could hear each others hearts pounding in their ears, see their emotions and soul though each others eyes, but what they both loved the most. Was the way they fit together so perfectly like a puzzle.



Author's Notes:
Hey it's Tango [NerdxVomit]
First off…
Sorry if this is really fucking short and shit. It was written a few months back with this lovely comm had a differ layout header. This was written after I ranted for like an hour to my one friend about how Ryan's bone structure got bigger, and how he's more broad now, and where Bren not only being shorter is just smaller all together. Which I don’t know how obv that was to people, but a lot continue to think Ryan is smaller.
When he is not, and I will not believe otherwise, it's in the bone structure!
So hence this fic
Okay I'm done
hope you enjoyed, seriously I really do.
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